1.Trickster
I'm the trickster burn so brightly
I still hate you motherfuckers everyone
Wrapped in glory bound so tightly
I still crave you even when i'm overcome
Saved by the light
Let me go on let me go bright
To be saved by the light
Let me go on let me go bright
I'm the trickster burned so badly
I still hate you motherfuckers everyone
Wore my sickness so politely
I can't be your everything to everyone
Void of meaning swelled just slightly
I still need you i still need you
Gone forever so concisely
I still need you i still need you
Saved by the light
Let me go on let me go bright
To be saved by the light
Let me go on let me go bright
And if you hate the world
Let's say i've been there
And if you hate yourself
Well don't go changing
All the times i used your body
Done my way can't say i'm sorry
Ripped the gloss off all your memories
Consequences so demanding
Bruised and beaten
Conscience bleeding
Sexually, sexually, sexually
Saved by the light
Let me go on let me go bright
To be saved by the light
Let me go on let me go bright
And i'm saved by the light
Let me go on let me go bright
Let me go bright
2.St. Lawrence River
Smells on the air
See there it's crushing the final impression
The stains on the paper
Where words fell like water
Unearth all the changes that never did matter
I think it's beginning to freeze here
Caught in the rage and the fire of things
All the brightness that burns me
I'm fumbling through like a child in the dark
When the nakedness comes
I am shocked by the colour the glorious weight of your skin
Comes alive
And i never thought we'd make it back so soon
Might be nice
But i knew you'd be your own destroyer
Comes a time
And i always thought i'd make it up to you
Here please forgive me
Could we escape all the bitterness piled upon bitterness
Held in the face of the things that i don't understand
Intellectualize over and over
This helplessness suits us
Funny how quiet has slipped to our corners
Worn all our edges away
You are watching breathing and baiting
Wanting and warming and cautiously waiting
For some simple signal to creep cross your conscience
Uncover redemption and oh did i mention
I carried you down to the st. lawrence river
The banks running dirty the water's beginning to freeze here
Solid by morning
And i'll freeze here
Winter by morning
Comes a lie
And i never thought you'd get me back so soon
Might be nice
But it's only if my own destroyer
Comes alive
And i always knew i'd make it up to you
I saw on your face such a curious grin
As i let go your hand
I was desperate to hold you again
But you're sinking so deep in the water
Outsmarted myself and so easily gave up what i wanted
Solid by morning
What i wanted
Winter by morning
Comes alive
And i never thought you'd make it up so soon
Night be nice
But i always knew you're my destroyer
Comes a time
And i always thought i'd make it up to you
Solid by morning
And i'll freeze here
Winter by morning
3.Jesus Was My Girl
So he dies and i'm the joke
A playdoh mask a million miles to go
A suped up cock tease with a little twist
When sex got ugly i'd insist
Hear you'll empty all i've got
Fucking's over but i can't stop cumming
Still born dead or never born at all
When jesus was my girl
She told me
When jesus was my girl
It's impossible for me
Harder even if i turn it over
I'm not as pretty as i thought i'd be
Another symptom of my damn desease
Hear you've taken all i got
Fucking's over but i just keep cumming
Still born dead and never born at all
When jesus was my girl
She told me
When jesus was my girl
When jesus was my girl
She told me
When jesus was my girl
I'm not as pretty as i thought i'd be
Another sympton of my damn disease
I'm not as pretty as i thought i'd be
Another sympton of my damn disease
I'm not as pretty as i thought i'd be
Another sympton of my damn disease
I'm not as pretty as i thought i'd be
Another sympton of my damn disease
When jesus was my girl
She told me
When jesus was my girl
When jesus was my girl
She told me
When jesus was my girl
I'm not as pretty as i thought i'd be
Another sympton of my damn disease
I'm not as pretty as i thought i'd be
Another sympton of my damn disease
I'm not as pretty as i thought i'd be
Another sympton of my damn disease
I'm not as pretty as i thought i'd be
Another sympton of my damn disease
I'm not as pretty as i thought i'd be
Another sympton of my damn disease
I'm not as pretty as i thought i'd be
Another sympton of my damn disease
4.Unholy, Dirty And Beautiful
Bound by the time on the clock
Bittersweet wondering the quiet transfusion
Hold tight nothing is complicated
Hold tight everything's fine
Confidence fell through the hole in your pocket
The simple's illogical so it be logic
I'm caught in the diaries with all your complaining
The curious scribblings of one who has everything
Leave me unholy and dirty and beautiful be
Unholy and dirty and beautiful
Cherish the lies that you bought
Charming delusions gone crack in the fire
I know we might be mediocre
I know nothing's on fire
Confidence fell through the hole in your pocket
The simple's illogical so it be logic
I'm caught in the diaries with all your complaining
The curious scribblings of one who has everything
Leave me unholy and dirty and beautiful be
Unholy and dirty and beautiful me
Unholy and dirty and beautiful
Beautiful, beautiful
Unholy and dirty
You can give a try
Average to sustain
You can give a see
You can give a stay
Everything's to the feel
As the years go by
Listen to the tide
You can make a stride
Never come again
Never come again
Never come again
Never come again
Never come again
Never come again
Never come again
Never come again
Leave me unholy and dirty and beautiful be
Unholy and dirty and beautiful me
Unholy and dirty and beautiful
Never come again
Never come again
Never come again
Never come again...
5.Forestfire
What if i were you and you were me
Still can't see the forest fire beyond the trees
Now i'm standing in a field of green
The colours burning far as i can see
What do you see
On my tongue the galaxies so small
Here i'll drink it down and watch the world dissolve
Now i'm pouring through the universe and slipping
Through the endless stream of time
What would you find
And i'm flying floating on the wind again
Hoping it will drag me in
Can't you see i'm laughing
Laughing at the consequence
Laughing at this circumstance
Don't you know by now
Wave at all the faces they go by
Faster that we live the more we die
Now i'm crashing through the open door and smiling in a most
peculiar way
What would you say
And i'm falling faster than the waterfall
Opened up and after all
Can't you see i'm drowning
Right here in the open air
Wishing i could still go clear
Don't you know by now
Don't you know by now
This is what we are
This is what we are
Don't you know by now
Don't you know by now
This is what we are
This is what we are
Flying floating on the wind again
I'm wishing that you'd drag me in
Can't you see i'm hoping wishing i could see myself
Wishing i was someone else
But don't you know by now
Don't you know by now
This is what we are
This is what we are
Don't you know by now
Don't you know by now
This is what we are
This is what we are
This is what we are
This is what we are
This is what we are
This is what we are
This is what we are
This is what we are...
6.Babyskin Tattoo
I am just the grey one i'm the darker side of you
And there's a place you left inside me
I hope it will amuse
And see this sign carved in my arm
Just means i'll hate you all forever
It's my babyskin tattoo
It's all the brand name that you've left
It's not so far
From me to you it's not so far
From me to you it's not so far
From me to you it's not so far
Circumcised myself because i knew you'd be too busy
And i saw the knife was dull
Just why the fuck do you think i'm crying
Styes caught in my eye
And it swells me 'til i'm numbing
But i'll leave it here to punish you
For leaving me so hard
It's not so far
From me to you it's not so far
From me to you it's not so far
From me to you it's not so far
I deliver i will receive
All the blessings from these things given
Tested longer held back only here
I am just the grey one i'm the darker side of you
And there's a space you left inside me
I hope it will amuse
And see this sign carved in my arm
Just means i'll hate you all forever
It's my babyskin tattoo
It's all the brand name that you've left me
And i beg borrow prostrate here
Under cover of everthing made dear
Fearing only, fearing only you
7.F Train
(just one sec)
(lavalamps are good)
Traveled on the f train down
The people press and crowd
They start to fade like footprints worn away
Only stop and still i'm waiting
A thousand faces look the same everyone
A thousand different names
They come on two by two
People fade as people do
Came here of my own volition
Could be my decision
Could be
We may still get by
We may still get by
Wandered down on avenue a
The coffee shops the sweet cache
Of thoughts and words and laughter gone
Never ending stream of what you've
Known so long and long ignored
Don't think so hard just smoke your cigarette
And fade off into blue
'cause people fade as people always do
Consequence comes crashing in
The scars and scrapes and scratches
All the memories died so long ago
Time is up but still i'm waiting
Came here of my own volition
Could be my decision
Could be
We may still get by
We may still get by
And we may still get by
We may still get by
We may still get by
8.Million
Borrowed in black you are mine
Don't make it easy don't make it hard
Don't make it so simple again
So so easy again
Bound like a child you are mine
I can't defend you
I won't complain
I won't go so so quiet again
Go so gently again
A million a million more
A million a million more
A million a million more
For you to burn
Promised your mother i'd write
I'd kill you quickly
I'd keep you calm
I'd make it all so simple again
All so quiet
Here once the morning was bright
But violence changes changes the light
And now i've grown so empty again
Grown so empty again
A million a million more
A million a million more
A million a million more
For you to burn
I can be cold dear i can be cold as you wanted
Living is hard here
When i'm just the whore that you wanted me to be
A million a million more
A million a million more
A million a million more
For you to burn
9.Final Thoughts And The Last Day On Earth
Heaven haunts me kill for a cigarette
Heaven is all that i got
My god left me without one word of warning
My god left me waiting is all that i got
I've seen your face before
I've seen your anger crashing down
All my life i've seen your babies
Crashing to the ground
Needle brought me comfort to keep me stable
Comfort, paid for
Comfort is all that i got
My god left me without one word of warning
My god left me
My god is all that i got
I've seen your face before
I've seen your anger crashing down
All my life i've seen your anger
Crashing to the ground
Don't be afraid
Don't be afraid
We're all afraid
I've seen your face before
I've seen your anger crashing down
All my life i've seen your babies
Crashing to the ground
Don't be afraid
We're all afraid
Don't be afraid
We're all afraid
Don't be afraid
We're all afraid
10.Mood Song
I'm so dead and angry
I'm justified to feel this way
I'm broken in pieces
The only game i would not play
And you might be angry
And you might have the last laugh said
And you might be waiting
That's your choice so take it all the way
I don't want you anymore
Your way
I don't want you anymore
I'm broken in pieces
And you might never know the way
The kitchen is easy
And i won't be the first to say
And i might be over
And i might be the last to waken
Weakened and broken
But i don't care if you sight
Moment's easier
Moment's easier
Moment's easier to find
And you might be angry
And you might be the last to take me
You might be over
But don't tell me that i can't be defined
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